...jus wen i needed u...

i donno y m writin u a mail wen i cudve easily called u up...but m jus so hopelessly lost rite now i dont think i hav the strength to talk to ne1...m goin down this depressive trip n i cant seem to get out of it...i got weird things goin in my head n theyr killin me...it like all of a sudden no1 cares tht m gonna b gone...in fact theyr jus waitin for me to leave...no1 has the slightest time to spend wid me...ppl tht matter are drivin me mad...i feel like an absolute loser its like im killin myself wid all this shit in my head...im so confused i can barely register wt m writin or wt it is exactly tht i wanna tell u...i donno wt to expect frm ne1 anymore...cos somehow it seems like m expectin a hell lot...i cant get anythin out anymore...to any1...n keepin it inside is makin me go insane...i jus wanna run away to someplace n not look bak...i dont wanna b myself anymore...cos bein me jus hurts...evry1 takes me for granted n somehow life aint fun bein me anymore...jus this once i wanna get lost in the crowd...if bein stereotyped is wt it takes to b at peace thas wt i wanna b...i wanna b normal if thts wt bein normal is...i wanna get lost...but i donno whr!